WeLCoMe2MYLiFe

Fix You

2006-01-04T16:00:00.000-08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
when you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just watch and learn

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from all my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Fix You
Coldplay

A nice song by Coldplay. But i wud like to assume it as a song from my dear angels. :) Does gives me some inspiration when listening to it.

TiMe eVaPoRaTion

2006-01-03T23:00:00.000-08:00

In 1 hour we can bid goodbye to 3rd January coz its gonna be 4th already. I dont know how these 3 days past so fast and i have the feeling that at end of the year i'm going to tell the how fast did this year went beacause that what i had been telling for 2005. Time really evaporates, not fly anymore. That is one of my friends favourite quote. *laughs* And i felt the same too. So many things happened in 2005, lotsa ups n down. There are things which i planned n i guess i made it accomplished. Happy for that. For 2006, is there any resolution, i'm not sure. Perhaps i want to be a better me n upgrade myself spiritually.

WeLCoMe 2006 BuBBYe 2005

2006-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

I wud like this opportunity to wish everyone Happy new year. Hope this 2006 bring you all a better fortune and may all your dreams and wishes come true. *CHeeRS*

Accident

2005-09-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

"Name the greatest of all inventors. Accident."- Mark Twain

In 1898 Marie Curie found radium which has been a great discovery and the discovery of it is usefull in lotsa thing till today. She founded that by accident too. An accident had given me something i could not afford to loose. Wondering what did i found? A great friendship. Glad that it happened n thanx to the accident which happened exactly a year ago. *Cheers* Its already a year. Its looks as though as it happened a week ago. FReNZ 4eVa :)

Happy 3rd Anniversary

2005-09-18T10:00:00.000-07:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Vitamin C - Graduation(Friends Forever)

A nice song there. The reason i put it here, its 3rd anniversary for DIC & DBIS batch. 3 years ago around 30 of us were grouped here in MMU for the so called DIC(Diploma in Internet Computing) & DBIS(Diploma in Bussiness Information System) courses. We were the fisrt batches for this course. Well for most of us its over now because it was only a 2 years course. Some had made their way to working experience, some continiuing their study sumwhere else and as for me n some others we are continiuing here itself. It was a great 2 years i had in my life as a student. A lot of pleasant memories throughout the years. So i'm taking this opportunity to wish all my DIC & DBIS friends happy 3rd anniversary. Wish ya all the very best in your lifes.

a BiG DaY oR SMaLL DaY

2005-08-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

Todays the big day. Suppose to be larr.Haha, the big day i mean is our convocation day. I didnt attend it. The reason, no idea. Haha, actually no semangat to go. At the very first day i had decided not to go, so i just sticked wif my plan of not going. Spent the day wif gud friend of mine. Actually my plan was to go bus station wif her n later join the convo groups. Since she changed her plan of going late, so spent the day wif her. We did nothing much, seeking for a quiet spot in the wrong place. Well, thats the options we had that time. Finally ended ourself in coffee bean and had some convesations there. Later headed bak home wif heavy heart that class is starting tomorrow. No time to rest, had been very bz wif the bbq.

ReGRouP

2005-08-06T23:30:00.000-07:00

It was the day, a quiet day, tired day, a happy day. We had bbq at pantai kundur. We had tried to regroup as many people as possible to join the nite but at last only 10 of us made it there. We rented a so called van which i was charged to be the chauffeur. This vehicle is more like a lorry to me, so hard to handle. Well, at least we shud be grateful that it didnt give any problem to us on the way. Woke up aroun 5 in the morning to go and buy chicken. Then the girls do their jobs wif the chicken and sum other cooking stuff. Since i'm vegetarian, the menu for me was fries, bread wif jam and 'TOMATO SOUP' specially prepared by KaK HaSNie. Well, it wasnt bad as i thot, pretty tasty. So we had a quiet nite there doing what we can do. We had some games also over there. Pretty fun. Its called "TOI". After the event we went to jonkers to take some pics and headed bak home. Reaching bak home, juss wished i cud juss dive into my bed but my task is not over yet. Hav to give bak the van, so travel bak from here to ujong pasir to give bak the van. Joe brought along his bike so that he can fetch me bak. After comin bak, ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Its alwis nice when all of us gather together. The joy of togetherness, looking at the familiar faces, the faces which was not seen for a long time. Well, all i hope there is more event for us to regroup.

JaLaN JaLaN DaY

2005-08-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

*phew* The perfect word to describe the day. Spent most of the day outside the house going here n there. Was very tired at the sametime fun. It all started in the morning. First thin went to jj to fetch Hasnie there. I went there wif Mas. We had our lunch in Shakeys. It was the first time i ate sumthing there as a customer altough i hav been working there for 10 months. We was planning what to be done for the bbq that we plan to do during our convo time. That day we planned what to food to be prepared n the list down the raw materials that need to be bought. After that, we planned to go n survey the place where we gonna do our bbq. Since my car got no roadtax, we hav to rent a car to accomplish our mission. So , we continued our journey. Our first stop was pantai kundur, we juss pass by the place before heading to tanjung bidara. It was a sudden plan to go to tanjung bidara. So it took another 20 mins to reach there. This time we walked along the shores to survey the place. This 2 gals were very exited, hehe, macam lil kids. They even play teng-teng there. At that moment, feels like a big bro brought 2 lil sis to the seaside. But the truth, these 2 gals are older the me. Hahaha. i'm sure thay are going to whack me after reading this. :b. After that, we decided that pantai kundur is a better place to do bbq since its nearer and i guess brighter. Later in the evening, a old fwen of mine called me lookin 4 kitten.He came all the way form jb lookin 4 it. Brought him to my uncles vet clinic n he found the kitten he was lookin 4. Then came bak, mandi rush bak to my uncles house. It was my cousins b'day that day. Went to celebrate it. Came bak wif my stomach loaded wif food, but my day havent over yet. 1 more event b4 i retire. Supper wif these gals again. This time got 1 more extra person, miss ji lin. Tak larat to eat, so juss had a drink. After that, came bak n sleep. *phew*. What a day. Tired n fun.

eYe'S oN Me

2005-08-03T21:45:00.000-07:00

Juss came back from dinner. I manage to stole the limelight in the place i had my dinner. The reason, i brought a gal of different race with me to eat, a friend of mine. So funny how people react, it just makes me uneasy. Well, since i had enough experience on this, so dun really care bout it. But somewhere inside my heart tells, "what's wrong with you people, why are you all giving me a look as tough am i a sinner". Is there anything wrong going out with someone who is opposite gender of yours and come from different race. Its just how you look at people, whether u look them as a person of different race or human beings. The body u have with you now is just temporary, when u die its no more usefull. The real you is your soul which has no colour that differentiate you one from another. *SiGHS* Was talking to my friend bout this matter in d evening. She somewhat feels the same as i do. Well all i hope is that people change the way they look at things. Stop differentiate among yourself n see what is same within you. Well, in that case i think world would be a better place to live on.

But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate

And to discriminate only generates hate

And when you hate then you're bound to get irate,

yeahMadness is what you demonstrate

And that's exactly how anger works and operates

Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight

Take control of your mind and meditate

Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

BLaCK eYeD PeaS - WHeRe iS THe LuV

HoMe SWeeT HoMe, aNYTHiNG eLSe So BiTTeR

2005-08-03T15:00:00.000-07:00

Juss came bak from my hometown, d so called seremban. What a place, not sure whether sumthing wrong with me or the place. I dun feel comfortable staying in that place except my home. Stayin at home, its still ok but once u go out feels so tensed up especially when u r driving. The ppl there seemed like dun have any patience in them. The way they drive,so bad. Its like a ant colony where every ants juss keep movin where no one waits for no one. No basic courtesy, hmmmm, so sad. But well atleast i enjoyed staying bak at home. For me, i still find mcca is still the best. The pace here is much more slower n more peaceful. But i believe one day its gonna be sumthin like tat too, well by that time i hope this place is still better than the others.

LoNeLiNeSS uNLeaSHeD

2005-07-29T12:48:00.000-07:00

Sitting here, in front of my fellow roomates computer i'm goin to various stages of my lifes memory. Juss came bak from lab test, can say that it was one of the toughest exam i had this trisemester. I'm still wondering how that 2 hours past. Maybe i can use my dear frens quote here. "Time evaporates". All my housemates had went bak their hometown and left me alone ere. Well i wud say this would be one of my fav moment. To be alone. Long since i had some time for myself, lately had been very busy. So i cud use this moment to enjoy on my own n do things i like. A walk in hutan rekreasi wud be a good idea, so long ready since i went there. Will be going bak to see my families next week, certainly miss them all. :) Have to come bak early because we are having convocation next week. But my main concern is the bbq that we are going to have not the convocation. I sumwhat dun really feel like going4 the convo. Well at least through this event can see all the dearest frens of mine again. Cant wait though. Hope a great time is waiting for us there in the bbq. Well i think thats all for now. Till my next entry, dunno when is that. Haha.

NiNJiTSu uNLeaSHeD

2005-07-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

2 Days ago i had a new experience in my life, i joined nunjitsu class in my U. It was kewl since i get learn sumthing new. Since martial arts is a passion 4 me this wud bea great experience 4 me. My first class was kinda kewl. I was thought how to fall, roll so n so. Since i'm learning
Silambam oso, so i get to learn different things in ninjitsu. Hope i can learn more in upcoming classes.

SeTTLeD aT LaST

2005-07-04T23:13:00.000-07:00

*phew* At last, i managed to settle my PTPTN stuff. Signed the agreement not long ago which means i hav been offered the loan and now i have to juss wait for the money. I kinda had some sleepless nite when i read the newspaper about the article where PTPTN said that they are not going to offer anymore loan to IPTS anymore, which means private university. Feel so relieved now. Thank GoD. I juss came back from technical communication class, a class which i consider the 2nd bored in the list. My frens were reading novel during the class and i was kinda bored and dunno from nowhere we started playing hangman in the class. Well that was kind of fun altough we were not doing the right thing in the class. Hope the lecturer dun catch us playing that. Hahaha. Gotta stop here coz my dear stomach is making sound de. Hav to go and give him a treat.

NeTWoRK eNGiNeeR uNLeaSHeD

2005-06-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

Haha, had a bz evening today. I had to set d network for my friends house. Its great when whatever u had learned can be put into act. Feel so great, hahakz. Well although what did is a simple thing but its great to see it works. Its like all your effort paid n whatever u had learned had been really utilised. Besides this setting up thing, i had 1 more big task. Becoming an answering machine. This fren of mine, whom i set d network for fired me wif millions of questions and i have to answer larr of course. Neways its a good experience for me today and the outcome was positive which means a day wif sumthin usefull done.

HoLa

2005-06-25T13:06:00.000-07:00

HeLLo WoRLD, ifever u learn programming, any language, this is certainly the first program u will write. *laughs*. The last time i post a message i was a still a CADP( Centre for Affiliated Diploma Program) student waiting for this university to receice me as a new student. Finally after being delayed for 2 semester i manage to call myself a FIST( Faculty of information Science & Technology) student and i get to do the course i wanted to do (Data Comm). In a way i feel lucky because my frenz where having hard time getting into degree program because dunno all sorts of funny things. One of the funniest part " we didnt receive your application ", somehow shows that we didnt exist there in MMu. Mine was kinda smooth sailing coz i didnt have any problem wif this kind of matter, infact sum1 hav to call me n tell that i got d place de. Thanx pal for the good news. Here i am now, finished 2 weeks of my 1st semester of a long way to go *sigh*. Many wrong movements i made in my life and its costs me a lot of time. But a good thing is i get to knoe a lot of great peoples and friends *grins*. In this 2 weeks of my class, i get to hav to go to class wif my ol frens. It has been more than a year i didnt get into same class wif my roommate. Really happy to see familiar faces again in my class. Feels like bak on track de. And i manage to get in class together wif sum1 else oso, haha. :b . It feels like being together in d same class together for the 1st time but it is not.
There is 1 shocking news i got in this 2 week. Its bout PTPTN. I was freaking scared when i heard the news that they are going to give money only to the local U's. Man, feels so screwed up. Well at least not now they say, very soon it seems but how soon no1 know's. I juss submitted my form yesterday n hope all goes fine. In this case or scenario i dun knoe who to blame, the Government or the students who is running away from paying back. I mean the student who had previously borrowed money and not paying back. Last time PTPTN, were generous enough to give money, but not they seem to be cutting down their money flow to students. According to them, their fund is decreasing, the money goin out n comin in is not equal enough. People are not really paying back and in a way they are affecting others future. Well to get into local U is not easy enough and moreover with the limited space they have. So the other option we have is private U's because here we can apply for the loan too. If loans are not given to private U's where is the remaining student going to go. So please, those who had borrowed money from PTPTN, pay back. Dont because off you all, sum others future is spoilt.
There is one more thing i wish to say here. Today is my fellow housemate Zulhilmi's 21st Birthday. Many more happy retuns of the day man. May all your wish and dream come true. GOD BLESS YOU my dear fren.

HeLLo eVeRYoNe

2005-05-13T21:42:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, hehe, long time liao didnt write sumthin here. First of all wanna wish me a Happy Birthday. Hehe, 23 years liao, i hav been into this world n yet to achieve sumthin real. All is on the way i guess, hahakz. First time ever, i didnt c anyone close to me on my birthday... in reality larr, well there is still mobile n cyber world where ppl can wish me though.... here i wish to myself wanna be a new person where i can hav all d good qualities a human being can have....... thank you frens for all your wishings n gifts.... its not your wish or gift, its the caring thought that makes me really i happy, that i hav great frens aroun me. HuGs. LuV Ya aLL

WHY iS iT THiS WaY

2005-03-23T06:30:00.000-08:00

Ok, here i am again and for the first time set to write sumthing that i have been wondering about. Whenever you are in a class whether in a school or univesity or collegge there will be a guy or gal who is top in the class. Have you wondered why. Why is he much more better than the others in his class. Is it because he is smart n you are stupid. What you think?. Well if u ask me, i wud say that everyone in this world are born equal. All of us are equipped with the so called brain and the wonder that this thing can do is beyond expectation of any of us. It all depend on how we use it. When we use it in a right way, you can be a someone and when you use it wrongly and there you go, sumwhere u don't want to be. Ok, lets come back to this smart person and the question why. Do you think you have worked hard enough. Do you think he earn those credit in an easy way. Well, of course not. The key word is 'HARDWORK'. Do you think you are as hardworking as he/she is, well, if you are, i think you would be sumwhere in the same level with him. Perhaps one shud stop saying that i'm not smart and start saying i'm not hardworking or working enough.One thing for sure, nothing is free in this world. When you want something, you have to work for it. Well, why am i talking bout this. Its because i am one of lazy kind of people. I've always wished to be good in my studies but have put in any effort. I know i can do it but the thing is i'm not doing it. Perhaps not enough spark to get me moving. Well all i wish is to be a hardworking person and achieve something in my life. So people out there, believe me its not matter of smart or stupid. Its matter of hardworking or lazy. So if you want something, work for it. Don't expect things come and drop in front of you. GOD has gifted everybody the ability to think equally to everyone of us. It all depends on how we use it. So think where is wrong and correct it and so will i. Till then on my next thoughts. Adios.

MY FiRST oNe

2005-03-22T06:00:00.000-08:00

Well well well, here i am with my own blog. The idea to hav 1 myself arised long time ago but looks like todays the day i took an extra step to make it happen. Why am doing this, so far no idea yet. I juss wanna share what am i going through in my daily life. Perhaps there might be somethings to learn from whatever i hav gone through my living process. Some lessons perhaps. It mite make others think and i hope it to be that way too because i guess this is the whole point of blog's. For someone to write and another to read and learn maybe. Depends on what message is passed. Well for first timer i think this is enough. Till i write sumthin again. Hope from whatever i'm goin to jot down here makes u to think about.